>>10645
With the "other people sharing her" i just dont mind, they arent just as serious, as we are, and with the "rule34", i just mindbroke myself to enjoy it, i think that is just me though.

The closest I come to that is extreme pickiness with my doujin.

Konata has to be treated with utmost respect and admiration. If she is involved with a male, she must be shown a good time, and must be given good attention. There was one small series I dropped because he had her blow him in a karaoke bar and she didn't get anything out of it.

I do get jealous but I view myself with low worth so I think things like "well maybe it's better she is with him" or something like that. I know I would treat her much better though, and I'm not particularly unattractive, so she could get over my flaws if we were together.

I want to see Konata happy most of all. Her happiness is my porn.

Oh and,
>>10645
You have a better grasp than a great number of people with English as their first language. You missed a couple of word forms, but the rules behind them are confusing as all hell and useless, knowing when to use them is something that only comes with having English as your first language, since we don't have to think about the rules.

>>10646
>With the "other people sharing her" i just dont mind
Yeah, i hate me for that. Its just kinda selfish.

>I want to see Konata happy most of all. Her happiness is my porn.
Bad thing about that is, that most doujins of her are either rape/mindbreak or love-sex, which is like NTR for me, so i cant really like them even if i want. Good thing is that there are only 3-4 doujins with a good artwork. The rest is pretty shitty artwork. On the other side there are hundreds of generic rule 34 pictures.
Im just thinking too much about this shit. I think that is my biggest problem, im so obsessed with it that i cant just enjoy my 2d love. At least i learned to think "thats not her anyway, its just a girl who looks like her" or "its a "doujin in a doujin" or something like that.
Thats the good thing about 2d, everything is possible.
Now i just have to come over my jealousy if other people talk about her. Its really irrational as its best. But youre right, there just not as serious as we are. There are plenty other girls i "like", some more, some less. But its a whole different thing as it is with my waifu.

Oh well, its good that i found this board, maybe i learn to see things different if i talk with other guys who have a waifu and can understand how i feel. But as long as i dont get at the point >>10628 describes i still can say its tolerable. Just... somewhat painfull for me and my mental health.


Oh, and
>You have a better grasp than a great number of people with English as their first language. You missed a couple of word forms(...)

Thats nice to hear, yeah my mainproblem are indeed the word forms. Sometimes the grammar itself in some sentences, maybe i can improve my english here a bit AND get over my to sick obsession with my waifu. But thanks for your input, i always like to hear where my mainproblems are.

Why do you need to be jealous in the first place?

I assume people have their own version of their waifu, sure the character might be the same in the media as portrayed but deep down people have different interpretations when it comes to interpreting the character which makes their own waifu unique. If I see people having the same waifu as me, then I commend them for their great tastes and move on. For me, I personally find it is as a compliment, since she gets more love from others and I would rather have that than for her to receive more hate.

I have no problem seeing 'rule 34' of her so long she is content with it, though something like rape makes my eye twitch a little. One thing that makes me angry though is someone drawing violent images of my waifu such as decapitation or dismemberment. That is when it crosses the line. If I ever find that fucker, I will torture him and inflict him so much pain, he would wish that he would never be born and he would wish that he had never drew them in the first place.

What I do with the rule 34 is to stay the crap away from it, I'm just not looking at it. Anytime I see some for accident I change the page/look somewhere else. Not for the purity thing, but because I don't like most of her depictions in rule 34.
On the other side I don't care If other people talk about her as long as they say nice things. After all she is the one I love, how could I not like that the others like what I love, and since I believe that she is mine I don't get jealous by that kind of comments, it won't change the fact that i am hers and she is mine. Even if someone says that she is also her waifu (and in a no joking way)I would respect it, and compliment that one's taste. I mean, and this may be childish but, if she was able to make me fall in love with her then of course anyone else would have felt too, she is that perfect to make it happen, and since I fall in love with her "lovable" side, being angry at someone noticing that side would be like denying that side.
However, it still upsets me when someone talks bad about her. Because I care for her I don't like that anybody could be saying bad things to her.

I know that feel. It bothered me a lot but after I grasped the concept that everyone has his own "version" of his waifu I didn´t bothered anymore.
Rule 34 about her makes me in fact kinda glad, every picture of her is sort of a treasure for me since they are scarce. Of course there is some stuff that i simply cannot approve and that upsets me a lot.

>Oh, i hope you dont mind my english, its not my first language.

I´d have never noticed, but english isn´t my native tounge afterall.

>>10653
>though something like rape makes my eye twitch a little. One thing that makes me angry though is someone drawing violent images of my waifu such as decapitation or dismemberment. That is when it crosses the line. If I ever find that fucker, I will torture him and inflict him so much pain, he would wish that he would never be born and he would wish that he had never drew them in the first place.

Not many things get a heated reaction out of me nowadays, but whenever I stumble upon some rape, or even worse, these "abuse" doujins or whatever, I feel like tracking the piece of shit who did that and smash his brains in the walls, and then I proceed to hurt myself as badly as I can for letting my curiosity get the better off me and look at those shitbags.

But just the thought of people fantasizing about her pain and suffering to fulfill their perversions, who enjoy seeing her ganged-up by a bunch of "self-insert" faceless scumbags makes me feel like going on a rampage. I don't even need to read the fucking doujin, I never do, just looking at the cover, the tags, the shitstains commenting on it, just knowing it exists, already drives me crazy.

And It doesn't even need to be my waifu, I get this reaction from any character that I like, but with her is 100x worse.

It's not about jealousy, the fact that other people might have her as a waifu too barely crosses my mind. But how can people enjoy such fucking disgusting cruelty?

Thanks god I barely look at porn anymore so I can't stumble upon shit like that. And for me a doujin is just a doujin, not "reality". But these thoughts still get me from time to time, and goddamn they fuck me up. I never hated people so much until I started getting into seeing these things.

She wouldn't approve of it, but if I had the chance, I would beat to a pulp all those snivelling scumbags.

Sorry for this retard-rage filled post, I needed to get this out of my chest for a long time. I don't know how to deal with this. I'll never accept the facts that I stated, but I wish I could least learn to ignore them. But I can't.

I've never understood whole jealousy thing. Only jealousy I get when I see someone has more passion for his waifu than me for my waifu. I am only one who can know my waifu, somebody may claim to love similar character with same name but that one isn't my waifu. My waifu is my own creation in my mind. My goal is to totally separate my whole waifu from everything she is related in canon, but that will probably never happen.

And whole porn discussion has been discussed million times. They are fiction by drawn by some nerds, totally unrelated to my waifu. I read some doujins because some of them look hot, but most are pretty bad. Imagine what ford driver would do if he saw drawn picture of his girlfriend sucking drawn dicks? He would probably laugh with his girlfriend. That's what I do with my waifu when I see stuff like that.

I only feel bad when I see very violent gore or fetish stuff, but I always feel disgusted about stuff like that, no matter what characters are included.

I treat rule34 of my waifu as nothing to worry about, fake, imitations of the real deal. It's like fake pornography depicting a movie star/celebrity. I can't control with how they are made and sometimes I do enjoy them, but I never associate them with her, "her" being the girl that I love inside my brain. It's not worth my time to get angry at something I can't control-- sure, I can dedicate my life to tracking down and murdering these assholes that do this but what do they know? Nothing.

As for other people having her as their waifu, I have several layers of logic preventing me from getting angry at that. One, the term waifu has been a shaky term over the internet, and I've grown to learn that waifu-- used in any other place but TC, means "favorite character". If it's just favorite character, I won't mind. I mean, she is an idol and she's allowed to have fans, otherwise she wouldn't be a great idol now, would she? Now let's say if someone does in fact treat her as I would in my relationship, a "true TC" waifu. Well, I'd give them kudos. I know love if I see one, and an example is the artist Nekopuchi/Nukolog, the person who drew most of her fanart. He mentions that he loves Makoto and you know what? I don't blame him. I just know that his version of Makoto is 100% different from mine, and that we are in fact just loving the same source material. Plus, with the time and effort he puts in to draw such beautiful art of Makoto, I can only assume that it's a good form of love. That's how I deal with people loving the same character.

And with the whole "I'm not even ugly", it's not relevant. I feel that you are insecure about your relationship and you are looking for other things to blame than your insecurity with your waifu's loyalty. If, let's say, you were a fat sweaty nerd, what would be the difference? Waifu should be made to keep you happy, they are more or less the purest form of pure.. she shouldn't care how you look.. What I'm trying to say is, I've went through that phase before. I was jealous and angry at anything directed towards my waifu. I pretty much dealt with it over the years and decided that my relationship with my waifu is more important than getting angry and potentially losing this relationship over stupid things. Just stay adamant and learn to deal with these things. Isn't your waifu more important than stupid shit that is on the internet?

>>10650
If i jut could answer this. I dont know. It just was there, never had it in the first 1-2 years.

>>10656
Sorry for this retard-rage filled post, I needed to get this out of my chest for a long time.
Well, i think i can understand this rage, i know it too and i felt it too.

>I don't know how to deal with this. I'll never accept the facts that I stated, but I wish I could least learn to ignore them. But I can't.
Same here...

>>10660
>If, let's say, you were a fat sweaty nerd, what would be the difference?
Then i would know, that my waifu is just a replacement for a girlfriend since i know that it would be incredible hard to get a "real" girlfriend.
But im in a state where i dont even want another girlfriend. im so obsessed with my waifu that i want her and only her even if i had a ton of potential 3d girlfriends. Yeah, there are many guys who thinklike that, but i still have at least the hope to get a real gf. But i dont want. Thats why i mentioned that im average looking.
But i get what youre saying.


But now after some posts here i feel a little bit better, i was really in depressions where i was typing the first post here.
Its good to see that im not alone with this weird feelings.

>>10674
>Its good to see that im not alone with this weird feelings.

Welcome to tohno-chan dude, whatever massive issue/disorder/whatever you have, someone here has it too. You are welcome.

I've never once seen porn of my waifu, for better or worse. Hell, even the premise of the VN she's from is all but the perfect setup for a tender, emotional H-scene or two, but it ends up being totally clean.

Think of it like this, if it helps: your waifu is a movie actress, and she sometimes does sex scenes. I've often wondered how spouses of actors cope with watching their partner (pretend to) screw someone else on camera, or get raped or killed or whatever, for millions to see. On a gut level, it's got to be quite uncomfortable for them, to say nothing of the actor's parents and children. I imagine that learning to compartmentalize just comes with the territory; your waifu is not the character she plays, and the feelings and situations portrayed on screen are not real. What's real is the person she is at home, out of character, in your heart.

I guess it's a little odd to talk about different layers of fiction as being more or less removed from "baseline" reality, but it's hardly a new concept. Some of the old Looney Tunes shorts had the characters be actors playing themselves, for example.

And your English is just fine, OP. I've seen FAR worse from native speakers.