Sometimes I read posts on here and can't remember if it was me who wrote them. My memory is really bad and I don't remember anything, and I share a lot of opinions with the people here.
Anyway. I went to this chat on discord that's allegedly for NEETs and hikkis and other outcats or whatever, but it's just like pretty much any chat I've seen. Maybe it's as some guy said, "The medium is the message", in that by their choice of platform, they're telling lots about themselves, and it's nothing good. All those chatrooms just end up being inane circlejerks about nothing in particular between a couple of the most persistent posters. The reason I was attracted to it in the first place is not because I'm attached to the idea of "a NEET identity" or whatever, but because it's yet another attempt to find some common ground with other people. And that has been increasingly hard, with more and more people learning about the whole "hikkikomori" thing and being drawn to it. It's a case of "no true hikksman", but I really think that most of the people there don't really belong, and would be better off somewhere else.
I just want someone interesting to talk to, someone with whom I would have more than nothing in common, and who would be equally interested in talking to me. I'm not even sure what I'm looking for. There was a guy I met on /jp/ in 2011 and we spoke for a year, and it was really nice, but then he just dropped off the face off the earth. It doesn't seem like I'm asking for much, but all the people I meet seem to fall into the same 3-4 categories or personalities that I'm just sick of. It's a bit lonely.